2006-10-15

justsean: (Sean brooding by liars_dance)
2006-10-15 06:50 pm

What keeps you up at night?

What keeps me up at night? Nothing really.

I don't sleep that many hours, I like to stay up late, mostly reading, or watching movies with Vig, but when I do go to bed - and when we do fall asleep eventually - I am a sound sleeper.

But.. Of course there's a but. There will be nights when I wake up in the middle of the night, I have no clue. Thirsty sometimes, or needing to empty my bladder, or just plain awake all of a sudden for no apparent reason. When that happens I find it very hard to go back to sleep. Not because I find it hard to fall asleep again, but because I find it hard to stop looking at Vig.

Somehow he looks different when he sleeps. Younger of course, that's a cliche but it still holds true. At peace in a way he never seems to be when he's awake. I start looking at him and I'm lost. Most times I'm still there staring at him when the morning comes and he wakes up, finding me there, watching him. I think he knows, because he just smiles and pulls me down in his arms.